2010 F**k-It List-that's right, not a Bucket List

This was inspired by an article on Huffington Post.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/darryle-pollack/beyond-the-bucket-list_b_407801.html

The idea is to let go of some the things you've been holding on to from the past, goals you haven't met yet but you keep beating yourself up about it, forgiving yourself for not being perfect.  So before I come up with some kind of silly resolution list or "Bucket List," I figure it's time for me to LET IT GO!

1. I will never be organized.  Neat will never be my natural state.  
2. I will always be in debt.  Up to my eyeballs.  It makes me crazy.
   
3. I will never be a natural athlete.  I'm lucky to walk in a straight line most days.
4. Friends will disappoint you and you will disappoint your friends.  Same is true for family.  It's a natural part of life.  However, some transgressions I can't let go.  I know I should be a better person and "forgiveness" is divine.  But some things cut too deep.  There I said it.  Shame be upon me.
   
5. I'll never be the quintessential housewife.  This kind of goes back to the neatness thing.  I'm also just not good at running a household.  I don't like to cook either and don't plan on changing.
   
6. I made numerous mistakes in my youth.  Don't want to go into the list here as it affects others.  Many a bad judgment call has been made on my part.  I let most of those go due to the stupidity of youth.
7. I have an incredibly low tolerance for bullsh*t.  People will stand there and smile and tell me some massive pile of horse manure.  I let them.  I smile and I let them.  I will continue to do so.  It's my nature.  I don't like confrontation.  Problem with that is I become a little ticking time bomb.  One day somebody pushes too much dung on me and I fire back.  Thankfully, that's rare but it'll happen again.  Can't help it, it's my nature.
   
8. There are several classic pieces of literature I will never read.  I've tried.  They are boring.  I can't take it.  
9. I thrive off of sarcasm.  I don't think I could make it 24 hours without making some kind of smart@ss remark.  However, I wield my weapon with care.  Some people can't take it and I know that.  With them, I bite my tongue and then explode in the satirical, volcanic equivalent of Mt. St. Helens later with some other poor unsuspecting soul who is thinking, "there she goes again..." 
   
10. I've been known to be a little lazy.  Yep, L-A-Z-Y, it's not gonna change.  I prefer to think of it as "lost in thought" or "daydreaming."  There's something to be said for being in those states.  Really, I mean it.  Not enough people let their minds go to wherever it may lead them.  I do.  A lot.  If I don't, my dreams will do it for me anyway.  I swear I have the freakiest dreams.
11. Perhaps, most offensive to the reader, is that I have great difficulty in accepting religious or political fanatics.  I'm all for freedom of speech and religion but I get downright agitated when someone tries to force their viewpoints on me or my children.  I'm not talking about your average churchgoer or your average voter.  I'm talking about the ones who tell me I'm going to hell because I don't go to church.  Or the ones who condemn entire cultures just because they don't follow the same god.  As far as politics, republican or democrat, they are all fatally flawed.  Quit blaming the other side.  Work together for once.  See there...I should be more tolerant of these people.  I know that.  But will I be able to change that about myself?  No.  It kinda goes back to #7.
    

So, to heck with it.  Accept the things you cannot change or some cliche like that.  That's me...warty and all.  I apologize if I offend anyone who reads this but as for accepting myself...I'm okay with it, f**k it.  Happy 2010!

Next up...what I hope to do in 2010.  No resolutions though...won't keep them.  Guess that should be #12.